Depressed. How can I make my life better?

Build confidence and you'll build inner strength and it will look great on you too! Confidence is attained in small steps. It comes from within but there are ways to encourage it to bring inner peace, happiness and deter fear in social situations and decisions will be clearer. Attaining it is much like learning to run fast, however you need to start slowly and methodically and win small battles before you move to larger ones. Just as a child does when first learning to walk by building on experience, you must first rise, then steady yourself, take a step and re-steady. After the process is repeated several times it becomes less mechanical and more natural. Not sure it works? Try this: if for example you'd like to have more confidence around people, first practice remembering names, then a fact about that person, then focus on someone you both know then finally just focus on that person. As you begin to relate to that person try and let them speak more, and ask questions about them. Even if they ask you nothing about yourself-they'll think you're great! The smile you'll get is the immediate feedback you need that will boost your confidence a notch. Then-repeat this process and you'll be running in no time. It will change your life!

Please do not do it. Nothing is worth taking your own life. Have you even tried volunteering at a homeless shelter? I did and it made a huge difference in how I look at things now. When you are in unhappy and unsupportive environment, it makes it challenging to feel good. But you need to know that you are a good person and that your life means a lot. Things do get better when you start making effort in making it better. You will find a purpose, just heal yourself a bit first. It is hard without support, but doable. Here is a trick I learned - talk to the mirror. Write the things you want to happen (a few simple sentenses) and repeat them every day to yourself in the mirror like you already have it. Same words every day, like I am loved and happy, I have a great job etc. Make sure when you look at yourself in the mirror , you try to smile. Never say anything negative about yourself, you shouldn't even think it. If you ever see your reflection in the mirror or window when you are walking by, just smile to it and go about your business. You will get better, I promiss you. You can also try to find a doctor or support group you feel comfortable with and talk about this. Here is one of the website you may find helpfull http://www.save.org/

You are not alone and people do care. Wishing you to feel better soon.

I think you need to get away... like go on a trip somewhere, discover new things, meet new people, fall in love... it sounds crazy i know but i think you just need to get away from your everyday life because staying where you are now will keep you in that depressed mind set.

Other things i think you can do are-

Find a hobby, maybe that'll show you what you want to do in life..

Get a pet, if you hate meeting new people and pet is always nice

Go to the theatres, have lunch somewhere you've never been...

Try not to think about suicide, you need to realise how beautiful life can be.

You said that you let you life go to waste.. Your life still goes on for so many years and its never too late to change it around, The more you keep thinking like this the worse it will be. Its time for a change! You need to believe that you can do it and you deserve a better life!

Hope you feel better soon :)

Try reading the books of Vernon Howard.