whats more important?

The job of a parent is to raise you, teach you, care for you, but ultimately, in the end, let you go. She has given you all the tools and now it is your time to use them. People are meant to keep moving, keep growing, keep learning. It can be scary to step outside the world you have lived in up until now, but sometimes you have to leave to find yourself. Maybe you will go off to college/university and find a whole new world filled with things you have never imaged and you will shed your current self and remake yourself into something new, exciting, and unimaginable. Or you might go and find what you had all along with all you ever wanted or needed. She needs to understand that if she cannot let you go out into the world and see what's out there you could become stunted and unhappy, not being able to reach your true potential. On the flip side, you do need to understand her side. I do not know much about Muslim culture but I'm there are certain traditions and guidelines to live by. Sometimes it is hard for the current generation to live under the same guideline that the previous generations accepted with little to no problems. Also based on what you said about your dad leaving, she is probably worried you will leave and not look back. You need to ease her fears, she does not what to lose you. Make her understand you are not abandoning her, merely looking for fulfillment. Out parents want us to succeed and be happy. You want to go out into the world and find something that makes you happy and you can support yourself, and later her, on.