Joshua Mendoza

As I grew up I saw how this world changed to it's downfall enemys behind enemys but for what this generation makes me sick men raping little girls for ammusement people doing drugs for wanting to be accepted by their new friends this world runs on greed and corruption what nation can obtain the most supplies I have a good heart untill now I just sit alone watching the world fail it's promises and my old friends that are women are now "hoes" no joke I just want to erase myself from this world polliticians and their lies what can we do to change the pace we are going?!?!?

I'm 18 now and I started working out everyday I've been doing it for a month straight but my girlfriend got me sick so im not able to workout Now and my heart beat is really fast i do smoke cigaretttes 8 sticks a day should i be worried about it no one in my family has had heart problems should I go to the hospital and check it out?

So my parents force me to go to church a lot with them but I don't want to because of the hipocrits and Jude mental aholes and when I'm in church I just hear the pastor talking his s**t about how kid are sinners getting into drugs and sex that's when I snapped in church I told the pastor "why would you say that your son might be doing it to we don't know what life you live outside the church you keep on judging the teens but who are you to talk when you might be comitting sins to you talk about how kids listen to the devils music but in fact you listen to boy George and song that talk about bangging women" he replyed to me "my fellow members of the church this child has a demon in him he is lost and possessed by a demon we need to pray for him" I stopped him there we went at it back and fourth I just said "I have seen things that holy men should not do pastors rapeing little children pastors having an affair with their spouse!" don't get me wrong I love God but who are humans judging people if we are all the same right? Since then the pastor didn't show up to church

So I had a friend fallow my girlfriend for a couple of days and he caught her on camera so the next day she went out saying she was going to the mall with her mom and I said ok be safe acted like nothing happens waited a couple of minutes and went to the mall and that's were I saw the two holding hand and kissing so I went up to them and said how long was it going on he said 4 months long story short I looked at her in the eyes and said I'm going to give you a choice "either you come with me and forget about him or go with him and forget about me and and continue the relationship you have with him" she picked me over him so we had a 30 minute drive to go back home during the drive she started crying saying "baby I'm sorry please forgive me I fallen for him but I realized you are my one and only love my heart belongs to you and only you" I just stayed quiet during the drive once we got home I sat outside in the backyard in complete silence she came outside and brought me a cup of coffee and got on her knees saying "can you forgive me we have been together for 3 years and I don't want to throw it away you changed my life I was a nobody and I wanted to commit suicide before you came in my life please baby I love you forgive me" I just stood up stared at her for a couple of minutes and reached my hand out to help her up she took my hand and I whipes the tears from her. Eyes whispered in her ear saying " I forgive you we all make mistakes but this is the last time I want you doing something like that and if it ever happens you will see the true meaning of fear" she just staye quiet and hugged me really tight I felt something that thought didn't exist was it love because I truly love her more than anything or should I just let her go or should we just keep going?

So this lady at my church knows I love animals and she is going to give me 2 Siberian huskys that are puppies still should I get two or one of them? And I really wanted to own one since I was a kid

Well we get into fights about the most dumbest stuff like sometimes I sleep on the couch because I'm really tired from work but when my cousins and nephews sleep or laydown on the couch she dosen't say anything and if I wake up late if it's my dayoff she starts yelling at me for waking up late but if someone else wakes up late she says "drink your coffe and have breakfast" but when I wake up late she says "it's late already you can't eat breakfast or have your coffe anymore" and it's 7:30am they wake up around 9:45am I have to cook and clean I have to wash my own clothes everytime becuase I'm old already but she washes my cousins clothes and my nephews like she loves it cousins are in their 30 and my nephew is in his 20 recently I have bought a laptop and she took it away from me saying "I don't trust you with that laptop" but the most f***ed up part was she threw my clothes out the window for no reason I'm trying to go back to Cali with my mom and dad because they know how she's treating me and an hour ago she got a knife and tried stabbing me I had to take her down using my judo and then she called the cops saying I hit her because I'm crazy I have the stab mark on my left arm I just need $400 dollars more so I can take a plane home to Cali from the Philippines and then the f***ed up part is she put up cameras in the house about 30 of hem so she can watch what I'm doing when she is not home I just watch tv or go outside to eat at a restaurant by myself and come home around 7:30pm I bring them food if I go out to eat but then she just throws it away and she always tells lies about be to my parents saying I do drugs I steal I took 12 drug test came out clean and the stealing part I am rarely home I work from 9:00am all the way 11:30pm and my daysoff I sleep or just stay with my girlfriend in her house cause i really don't want to go home and get all these problems Why is she like that?!?

Ok so I was thinking do you ladies like Filipino men or half Filipino and half Mexican like me or any other half that's mixed with Filipino and why best answer gets 5 stars

p.s no bs answers:)

Hi I'm about to turn 18 in 4 month and I was wondering if I can get my license even though I got a possesion of marajuana ticket 4 years ago and the fine is not yet paid of the amount of $245 do I have to pay for it or I can't get my license?

I was wondering if I can have 3 passport's I own 2 already American,philippino and maybe Mexican if it's possible

Idk really i have tattoo's myself about 2 of them but screamo bands take it beyond the next level i just want to know why

No i'm not a girl it starts after i eat my breakfast,lunch,dinner its gotten really stressfull when i can't hold my food down and when i wake up i throw up bad

I live in the philippines i'm 21 already and we met at the mall we have been together for 3 years already and people told me it's not worth it because i'm a american citizen half pinoy also are they just playing me or are they worth marying because i seen my brother marry one and he is just being used his wife came from a wealthy home but idk someone help

I was thinking if i should/not bought it it's still in the box should i send it back or keep it and why?