Dezy

my cycle can be anwhere from 30 days to 50 days long (yes 50 day cycle is possible i had one 4 times in a row) so anyways if i go by the period i had last time im 3 days late but since my periods are retarded im not sure if i am even late.. When should i test?

i am so confused...i watched the season finale of being human on scifi... nora sees josh change into a werewolf then suddenly she is in pain and there is blood on her hand and they never really explain it....she doesn't seem too upset about losing a baby so what happened? why is she bleeding? i know she got scratched and will probably be a werewolf in the next season...but whats with the blood and the sudden pain while josh was changing?

He is Christan and of course he feels guilty as he should i guess but what can i say to him to make him feel better he left me a message asking for me to help him...what can i do?

Okay so my friend has a problem with porn...and whenever he shows it to me I know he is wanting me to scold him but how can I say anything when I also have a problem with porn? I stopped looking at not because I wanted to but because the computer was moved to the living room...So my first reaction is not to scold him but to ask him to let me see...But i really want to help him get over his problem...So will you please help me help him help me help us all?

Sleep Revelation

My dark warrior

I've found you

Slumbering safely

in your quite hideout

In this place where you're free to be you

I see you more clearly

with your armor removed

A beautiful light that you keep hidden

Peaceful and pure

A small smile plays on your lips

I believe that in your dreams

you love unfettered

I give her to him

I give him to her

The little boy reluctantly becoming a man

The little girl who doesn't want to hurt again

I take his hand and guide him along

She'll wait where she is ---her will too strong

I'm playing Cupid in this match making game

That's right I said it I have no shame

I want to watch her seduction dance

His hazel eyes caught in a trance

I chuckle hearing her siren's voice

Later he'll realize he never had a choice

*Sigh* Don't be afraid

Though caution should be paid

There's no need to be tame

It is love---the most dangerous game

Okay i read the Acknowledgments at the end of New Moon and it says "Thanks to all my siblings Emily, Heidi, Paul, Seth and Jacob for letting me use your names..." And I was wondering who in the world is Heidi?

Reasoning with the Voice of Reason

"You're supposed to be writing."

Shut up .You're not the boss of me!

"Actually I am .*sigh* You never listen to the Voice of Reason."

What if you're not the Voice of Reason?

What if you're the Voice of Unreason?

"Unreason?... I'm not being unreasonable."

"Your acting crazy."

I am not!

"Yes you are..You're aruging with yourself and losing."

I'm not losing..You're losing!

"That is correct."

Ha! So you agree I'm winning.

"No."

But you said you were losing so I must be winning.

"No we are both losing."

How so?

"Well the person reading this is winning."

What if they are losing.. would we be winning then?

"No. If the reader was losing then we would all be losing."

Who says?!

"So says the Voice of Reason."

Okay now your being unreasonable.

You are now the Voice of Unreason.

"Impossible."

There is no winning woth you is there?

"Ah so you finally understand."

Author's Note : Quotation marks= "The Voice of Reason"

Dizzy Dezy Theater Presents :

"The Great Math Escape"

Save me!

My pants are falling

My butt is showing

I'm in the middle of class

And I can't leave.

I'm going to be arrested

For indecent exposer;

For inciting a riot

Granny panties be damned

I'm running from the police.

They try to catch me but can't

shoving donuts in their mouth.

Being logical they take the stairs

trying to cut me off.

But the "hamstervator" is slower

than the speed of smell.

Five minutes later

I stop on the second floor

I run into the bathroom

Jump out the second floor window

and land on my feet 'cause ...

I'm cool like that

Running to the parking garage

They're waiting on the first floor.

But it's too late

I'm already gone.

Author's Note: "Hamstervator" is a term my friend uses . She says that the elevator is slow because it is run by two hamster. The story begins in my math class on the third floor.

TRANSCENDENCE

Spiders scurry along every inch

Covering me in a silky cocoon

Still Silent Death

Shattering

Shedding my skin

Splitting into two parts

Two wholes. One self

Neither Light nor Dark

Good nor Evil

Twilight embraces starlight

The Moon smiles shyly at the Sun

And my tale has just begun

Lay with me my brother; my friend

Wait with me until the end

Wait for time to begin again

Pain is normal so try not to scream

It will do you no good my love

Take small shallow breaths

Let Pain have you

Give you his gift of sanity

Please trust me

It won't be long now

Sliver Slithering

Slinking around your wrist

Cuffing Chaning

Uncurling your limbs

Revealing new wings

Lifting you slowly

Letting you fly

Find freedom

in your confinement

The yearn for change it burns inside you

You're reaching for it with both hands

You grab the first butterfly that comes along

I'm afraid

You're shoving Monarchs in your mouth

Poison flows through your veins

Calmly, you're walking along

It's hopeless

My voice only reaches your ears

I don't know

So I'll ask you

What do you want me to do?

Let you jump into the deep end

even though you can't swim?

Wait and see

if your body floats to the top

I love you so much it hurts

A realization that makes it worse

You come to see me

more and more

When I walk you to the door

and you say "Goodbye"

Do you promise to tell me

when it's for the last time?

My friend says that he will still be on Spring Break and he could come to my school and meet a friend of mine. On Monday I called him and said that we should hang out on Wensday because I know that Friday is his date night but he said he wanted to spend time with his boyfriend on Wensday so I say Friday then. I'm pretty sure he agreed.(but there is a chance that I was just hearing what I wanted to hear) So I called him up on Friday and (as I thought he might be) he is with his boyfriend. I know how he feels about his boyfriend but I guess I just wanted to spend time with him so it made me mad. Am I just being selfish? Is it even worth telling him how I feel or should I just forget about it because I'm just being a silly emotional female?

The ground pounding into my feet

sends electric waves

pulsing through my veins

As bones and tendons slam together

The drummer of my heart

can't seem to find the beat

That all too familiar copper taste

has filled my throat

But there is no slowing down

I can't ! I won't !

I must go faster !

As fast as my legs can carry me

I can't let this happen again

Please God save me

from my indubitable fate

I hear you ;You're gaining

Oh my sweet haven!

Why do you seem so far away?!

You pounce I feel it

My body crashes to the gound

I am defeated

With a rebel yell

You cry-----

Tag!

I know that the bunny and the eggs is just an attemp to get Pagans into our religion..just like Christmas but Christains justified Christmas because the three wise men gave Jesus presents..Sure I'll buy that it doesn't explan the tree but oh well..But Easter..that I don't understand..I don't know about Pagan rituals but I assume that eggs and a bunny has something to do with fertility...I'm sure that they teach you guys but I haven't been in church for so long so... Could you tell me what justifies the hiding eggs and the bunny...Oh and heres a wierd thought...Did the bunny lay the eggs? Perhaps any of you Pagans can tell me what the original holiday was about..because that has also been plaugeing my brain

It was you and me

a bag of chips

and a dirty magazine

How long has it been

My dear old friend ?

Caught up in our own lives

Can't seem to find the time

Try to call you on the line

Hello, How are you ?

Oh, I'm fine.

What about you ?

Is that all we can do?

What we've been reduced to?

Meaningless pleasantries

I mourn childhood memories

In my private melancholy

what can be done

for our stagnat pool

of mock complacency;

friendly civility ?

You mean so much to me

Am I holding on too tight ?

Is it even worth a fight ?

Or is it beter to pretend

then to lose you

in the end ?

You have me against the wall

No Escape.

As mush as I try

I can't move at all

We're all alone

No Help.

For an unknown sin

I must atone

Crimsom flows

I began to shake

Please Stop!

For God's sake

I'll do as you wish

Just please don't do this

"You love me?"

I do

You go for a kiss

I flinch

And am repaid

with your fist

My vision of you blurs

Without another word

You start to go

Oh No!

You've got me on my knees

Oh please don't leave

A sigh

A breath of air

"You know you made me go there"

I'm sorry. I love you...

I know

I'm nothing without you

"Good. I love you too."

A Blind Love

With a trembling hand

I read your face

Even without sight

I know of your beauty

The heat of the sun isn't alone

in warming my cheeks

Softly, I shuddered

Your lips grazed mine

I sit dazed

Your hope declines

Uncertainty fills your being

Until I say...

"Stay"

A wolf's howl

brings chills down my spine

Tighten your grasp in mine

Father has found us

in our taboo embrace

Fear is caught in my face

How could this be?

You need space?

You're with Him

Giggling with glee

Even blind I know

What you've done to me.

So you see my problem..besides any lack of talent you might be sneering at..I lack a transition between "Fear is caught in my face" and "How could this be ?" I go from first kiss to your cheating on me without anything in between. So all you great poets out there if you could make some suggestions that would be most appreciated

The figure in the mirror

is ghostly pale

Eyes sunken into

the brused hollows of her face

Sprit dulls with each passing of the day

She shakes her head

as I shake mine

Both finding the other to be pitiful

I glare at her and she at me

Our fist raise

Then bloody with the shattering of glass

Self hatred reflected

one hundred times over

This time has made me colder

You left me ;broken and used

Your not here

so why does your mark burn

as if you were near

My heart collapses into itself

As slinder fingers grasp my neck

Your tainted lips

place silver kisses

along my throat

" Forgive me love"

" I'll never leave again"

I smile before slipping

into my eternal dream

To the girl I love:

I'm sorry I took your panties

but I noticed you have mine

I just wanted you to know

Your never getting these back...

Memories of that night

Have been etched into my mind

My lips searched for yours

and you didn't pull away

Magic.

I turned back the pages

to another time

When your kisses were not mine

Your beauty emerged

with one cat-like curve of the lips

My blindfold was lifted.

Your smile was a gift

I never got.

Still I will always remember

How you let me hold you

and how your eyes

Always reflected the sky