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I am 24 years old and in the first relationship of my life with someone I feel like I might be in love with. I will admit, things started off unhealthy, when it began, I became completely absorbed in the relationship, my emotions were consuming me, and I might have been more in love with the idea of being in love than with him.

I won't go into details about this, but there are some very strange parts of our relationship that I won't share for my boyfriend's sake, only to say that he suffers from sociopathic tendencies. That's not to say he goes around murdering people, but he just doesn't feel emotions the same way as you or I do. And I never would have thought that I could fall in love with someone so cold, but I did.

Short story, I am leaving for the Air Force on August 20th, which makes this relationship hard to be in in the first place. But when we met, he was so inspiring, he told me he would wait for me, I decided to take a chance on a stranger.

Our time together has been a roller coaster, we talk for hours, and I am so happy, we live far apart so meeting is hard, but we talk online and on the phone, we've shared our lives with each other. After only a month, I felt so connected to him, I was beginning to think that I could marry him one day, I was even reconsidering my Air Force career.

The low points were hard, it got lonely when he wasn't around to talk to, and his emotionless attitude about things wore me down every day. He would show me that he cared one way, and how little he cared in another.

After awhile, it just got to be too much, I cried and pleaded with him to open up, to fight and show me that he cared with more than just a few simple words. When he couldn't, I was devastated, my heart fell apart, and I became completely numb. The next day, I sat him down to say goodbye to him, and he apologized to me, in a way that I have never seen in him before. He started to fight for me with a passion that I know was very painful for him.

So we are going to try again, taking it slower, he still makes me happy, but the overwhelming passion and desire I had to see him is gone. I still think about him when I wake up, and lie down, I still message him throughout the day, but this panic that I have about leaving him is gone... and I don't know if that's good or bad.

I still want to believe that our relationship will work out, but am I mistaking the happiness he gives me for love? We have so many obstacles and problems in our relationship and it's only been a month. What will it be like when I'm in the air force?

My heart says to give a try, but my emotions have been going crazy since I met him, and I don't know if I can trust them.

I know I haven't really given any reasons why I am in love with him, those are personal, suffice to say that it is because of who my boyfriend is as a person.

I'm just worried that his problems are going to create a passionless relationship, or at least one that is too low for me. He tells me that the best relationships are the ones expressed in moderation, that often people just burn out the passion in their relationship, and to some degree I agree, that people can become accustomed to a passionate relationship, and if that dies out there's nothing left, but I also feel like it's a way of expressing your love.

Should I continue down this path? I want to give this another try but I'm scared, he almost broke my heart beyond repair, and that is only one month in. Even though he apologized, damage has been done, I don't feel emotions the same way I used to, I have become somewhat numb.

In two months I have to leave, should I risk losing control of myself again for a relationship that stands almost no chance of working out?

Thank you all for reading this, all answers mean a lot to me

I know some people liked my poems so I thought I would post another one that I wrote recently

What is this rose without you,

If not cruelty and shame?

What pains in my heart I must go through

In the whispers that scream out your name

If I let go now you will be gone

The pedals will burry and die.

If I let go now it will be done

Without ever saying goodbye.

So I stand here now to give you my blessing,

Despite all my tears and my pain.

Because whenever life had me guessing

You were always my sun in the rain.

Goodbye my friend I love you so dearly

I'll miss you with all of my heart.

Though tears stop me now from seeing it clearly

I know that we'll meet when I part

It is a re post, I know this is shocking but I only got one answer for my last post

Star it if you like it please :), let me know what you think, criticism positive or negative doesn't bother me

As per the last poster's answer, I have made a few changes

Seasons pass from hot to cold

The bitter wind calls out your name

And days grow bleak and long and old

This lonely house is not the same

The window sobs as raindrops fall

In silent taps against the glass

The darkened grey, consuming all

When will the rain begin to pass?

I sit alone, in darkness lay

Without your warmth and loving smile

A thousand deaths I'd die each day

If just to hold you for awhile

Reaching forward, path unknown

I grasp at straws too thin to pry

And though my love for you has grown

My heart has withered, left to die

I love to share, and so please let me know what you think of my newest poem, a bit on the melancholy side, but very touching to me and I hope to you too.

Please star it if you like it, any and all criticism is greatly appreciated, even negative

The seasons pass from hot to cold

The bitter wind calls out your name

The days grow bleak and long and old

This lonely house is not the same

The window sobs as raindrops fall

In silent taps against the glass

The darkened grey, consuming all

When will the rain begin to pass?

I sit alone, in darkness lay

Without your warmth and loving smile

A thousand deaths I'd die each day

If just to hold you for awhile

Reaching forward, path unknown

I grasp at straws too thin to pry

And though my love for you has grown

My heart has withered, left to die

ok so awhile back I saw a question that asked for help writing a poem with assonance, consonance, and alitteration, I think it was for her final for some college class

So I thought it would be fun to try and write one that was also entirely in prose, I am wondering if I am getting this right and if you have ideas to help, because usually I don't follow such a structured plan in writing my poems and this is really hard

so let me know what you think, also if I am using them properly, I had to look all of them up and I don't think I used them properly

if you could explain them a little more clearly because the text book definitions kind of led me to this

Skip along, belong, to the dancing of the night

Fire's roaring, soaring high, stars are flowing, glowing bright

Music's beat and stomping feet, pounding hounding drums with might

Time stands still, until we fill the blackened skies with blue and light

What we show is all we know and dancing, chancing love and fun

The beats meet feet that dance and run

That's all I have so far, it's difficult like I said, I thought that the rhymes had to be sequential but now I am thinking it's possible that they don't

I had a bit of inspiration the other day and was in a surprisingly good mood so I thought I'd share one of my more uplifting poems

star it if you like it :)

Peaceful Days

Do sit with me

Beneath the tree

That so blissfully

Became my home

That once or twice

Or even thrice

Did so suffice

To lay my head

And peace of mind

Did so in kind

My thoughts rewind

And forward go

From blinding light

And deafening night

This tree did fight

And stand its ground

So sit with me

Beneath this tree

That so blissfully

Became my home

First of all, this is a repost, I only got one answer to my first posting so Im trying one more time...

It's not my husband, a co worker of mine lost her husband and she really loves poetry so I thought it might be nice to give her a poem of mine but I want to know what you guys think before I decide whether or not to give it to her.

I know this is a little conceited, but please give it a star if you like it, in this section I'd be lucky to get 2 comments and I really want to know what you think about this.

The Autumn Leaf

Day by day the autumn leaves turn

The driest brown before the fall

And one by one the autumn leaves learn

That none escape the winter's call

For many fall alone and bare

For fate has made the cruelest crime

Forced to wait until they tear

Forced to wait the sands of time

But leaves are not for solemn brown

But golden yellow and ruby red

And heavy is this nature's crown

But carried high upon one's head

And to the winds the leaves will blow

Scattering forth the ash of life

And flowers, trees, and plants will know

Two leaves lay hands as man and wife

It's not my husband, a co worker of mine lost her husband and she really loves poetry so I thought it might be nice to give her a poem of mine but I want to know what you guys think before I decide whether or not to give it to her.

I know this is a little conceited, but please give it a star if you like it, in this section I'd be lucky to get 2 comments and I really want to know what you think about this.

The Autumn Leaf

Day by day the autumn leaves turn

The driest brown before the fall

And one by one the autumn leaves learn

That none escape the winter's call

For many fall alone and bare

For fate has made the cruelest crime

Forced to wait until they tear

Forced to wait the sands of time

But leaves are not for solemn brown

But golden yellow and ruby red

And heavy is this nature's crown

But carried high upon one's head

And to the winds the leaves will blow

Scattering forth the ash of life

And flowers, trees, and plants will know

Two leaves lay hands as man and wife

Maybe not the best turn of phrase, but I was at MEPS the other day and I was swearing in for DEP. All the stories I read everyone is so excited after they swear in, but I had a horrible pit in my stomach. I felt increadibly self-conscious and I began to question my motives and my ability to see this through.

I feel better now, and sure again of my decisions, but I can't shake off how much that event rattled me, how much doubt I faced.

I was hoping anyone could share similar experiences, let me know how you dealt with it, and whether or not it's normal to feel that way.

I just feel so guilty about feeling that way, as if I have somehow betrayed not only myself but my country.

I just took my DLAB the other day and scored a 116, I have to be scheduled for the EDPT in the next few days.

I was wondering if anyone can share their experiences, offer any help, and / or help me decide (should I pass the EDPT) whether to join as a computer program specialist or a cryptolinguist.

I believe that the 116 qualifies me for all categories of languages, I was so upset after I finished the test though because I had gotten almost no sleep the night before and I had a horrible time trying to focus, I was so sure I did badly on it

and by upset I mean before I got my score, I was relieved I passed of course

For the life of me I don't know why I keep reposting this, or why it keeps getting deleted, I am considering quitting this site over this because YA staff has shown me through their replies that they haven't even looked at my question but here we go.

Let me know what you think and any and all criticism (positive or negative) will be greaty appreciated

Also, the poem was originally intended not to rhyme, but I threw in a small improper rhyme, this is the first time I have ever used one so let me know what you think...

Little Things

It's the little things

The ones that no one notice

That are special things

And part of who we are

It's the careful things

The ones give our focus

That remember things

As imprints of our past

It's the different things

With their different thoughts of purpose

That make bigger things

So unique from all the rest

They're important things

For without them we'd be helpless

It's the little things

That make us who we are

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also, if you like it, please give it a star, there are so few replies on this section I do like to get a good amount of feedback

Also, this is a repost, I know, I just want to get as many opinions as possible,

thanks again

For the life of me I don't know why I keep reposting this, or why it keeps getting deleted, I am considering quitting this site over this because YA staff has shown me through their replies that they haven't even looked at my question but here we go.

Let me know what you think and any and all criticism (positive or negative) will be greaty appreciated

Also, the poem was originally intended not to rhyme, but I threw in a small improper rhyme, this is the first time I have ever used one so let me know what you think...

Little Things

It's the little things

The ones that no one notice

That are special things

And part of who we are

It's the careful things

The ones give our focus

That remember things

As imprints of our past

It's the different things

With their different thoughts of purpose

That make bigger things

So unique from all the rest

They're important things

For without them we'd be helpless

It's the little things

That make us who we are

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- 3 days left to answer.

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also, if you like it, please give it a star, there are so few replies on this section I do like to get a good amount of feedback

Also, this is a repost, I know, I just want to get as many opinions as possible

thanks again

For the life of me I don't know why I keep reposting this, or why it keeps getting deleted, I am considering quitting this site over this because YA staff has shown me through their replies that they haven't even looked at my question but here we go.

Let me know what you think and any and all criticism (positive or negative) will be greaty appreciated

Also, the poem was originally intended not to rhyme, but I threw in a small improper rhyme, this is the first time I have ever used one so let me know what you think...

Little Things

It's the little things

The ones that noone notice

That are special things

And part of who we are

It's the careful things

The ones give our focus

That remember things

As imprints of our past

It's the different things

With their different thoughts of purpose

That make bigger things

So unique from all the rest

They're important things

For without them we'd be helpless

It's the little things

That make us who we are

I've tried in the past and a few times I have made somewhat decent ones, but the urge to throw in a rhyme is often so strong that I do it without even thinking about it. Tell me what you think of this one and if you think I could somehow change it to a non-rhyming theme. Also if you like it please give a star, so many of these posts go up I never get a chance to get a large range of comments.

I really don't want complements either unless you have something constructive to say, I write these for my own pleasure, but I love honest critique.

Today has run away with me

With crazy possibilities

And tedious uncertainties

Of what tomorrow brings

Today will bring tomorrow's past

A day that came and went too fast

To understand at very last

What tomorrow brings

Today I live, tomorrow die

But will I live or will I cry (not crazy about this one line either)

In shame to know today's a lie

What does tomorrow bring?

Tomorrow's here, my day has come

To say goodbye to all I've done

But as I face the setting sun

I know what tomorrow brings

Alright so Im posting this a 3rd time now after having made revisions, I hope this is better

The water has receeded with the setting sun

Leaving sand soaked shadows of the sea

The waves had laid to rest at last

And calmer skies bring down the sun

First, a bright and golden shine

It quickly fades (to) an orange glow

And as it dies the red emerges

Turning the blue a purple haze

Now, halfway down, the air's on fire

Blazing streaks into the sky

And on the water like a dream

The day has plunged into the sea

In its final light above the horizion

The clouds burn into waves of light

And in its final moments I admire its glory

Til the sky is black and full of stars

I figure it was better to just repost since I took up so much space with the other one

Alright, so I got great feedback and I have made some changes, I hope you like them, the ending in my opinion is still alittle weak, but I feel as though I strengthened it substantially

The water has receeded with the setting sun

Leaving sand soaked shadows of the sea

The waves had laid to rest at last

And calmer skies bring down the sun

First, a bright and golden shine

It quickly fades (to) an orange glow

And as it dies the red emerges

Turning the sky a purple haze

Now, halfway down, the sky's on fire

Blazing streaks into the sky

And on the water like a dream

The sky has plunged into the sea

In its final light above the horizion

The clouds now shine like waves in the sea

And in its final moments I admire its glory

Til the sky is black and full of stars

Again, please let me know what you thought, I really love constructive criticism, I will choose the answer that I feel is most honest and offers the best constructive criticism.

I am often harsh when it comes to critiquing others' works, so please feel free to offer any and all honest opinions and critiques I dont usually make non-rhyming poems and I hope it came out well

The water has receeded with the setting sun

Leaving sand with shadows of the sea

And the waves are calm, and the sky has cleared

First a bright and golden yellow

It quickly fades to an orange glow

And as it drops the red emerges

Turning the sky a purple haze

Now, halfway down, the sky's on fire

Blazing yellow, orange, purple, and red

And on the water like a dream

The sea has lept into the sky

Still further down the sunset goes

The clouds now shine like waves in the sky

Orange and yellow, purple, and red

I could watch it for hours, but only minutes I have

Until the sky is black and full of stars

And I must wait for another day

I am going to pick the answer who I think offers the most honest and constructive criticism

I know this is a repost, but I feel that I didn't get an adequate answer that was supported by facts

Forget the fact that it discriminates against minorities, the elderly, and the poor. That it is completely biased towards Republican votes.

Explain to me simply, why a law is needed to prevent something that almost never happens. 10 cases in 12 years....

Even the RNC could only find about 300 cases in the last 12 years, which included things like mis-entered adresses which an ID couldnt fix.

So tell me, why is this a necessary law?

And don't even try to throw ACORN at me...

This is from Factcheck.org

■Neither ACORN nor its employees have been found guilty of, or even charged with, casting fraudulent votes. What a McCain-Palin Web ad calls "voter fraud" is actually voter registration fraud. Several ACORN canvassers have been found guilty of faking registration forms and others are being investigated. But the evidence that has surfaced so far shows they faked forms to get paid for work they didn’t do, not to stuff ballot boxes.

12 hours ago

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here are the statistics of people who do not carry ID, they also are people most likely to vote democratic

Blacks: 25%

Asians: 20%

Latinos: 19%

18-24 year olds: 18%

Seniors: 18%

Earning less than $35,000: 15%

Whites: 8%

Forget the fact that it discriminates against minorities, the elderly, and the poor. That it is completely biased towards Republican votes.

Explain to me simply, why a law is needed to prevent something that almost never happens. 10 cases in 12 years....

Even the RNC could only find about 300 cases in the last 12 years, which included things like mis-entered adresses which an ID couldnt fix.

So tell me, why is this a necessary law?

And don't even try to throw ACORN at me...

This is from Factcheck.org

■Neither ACORN nor its employees have been found guilty of, or even charged with, casting fraudulent votes. What a McCain-Palin Web ad calls "voter fraud" is actually voter registration fraud. Several ACORN canvassers have been found guilty of faking registration forms and others are being investigated. But the evidence that has surfaced so far shows they faked forms to get paid for work they didn’t do, not to stuff ballot boxes.

I tried to write a poem without rhyming, then about halfway through I thought it might be interesting to rewrite it with a half rhyme, so please let me know what you think. I don't care if the comments are positive or negative, but I do ask that you add some sort of criticism please.

So cold, I feel life slipping

Draining from my very soul

A deep and slow and chilling death

That steals the warmth I feel from life.

The darkness comes before the killing

And steals my light from open eyes.

ok so now with a half rhyme (I know it isn't done)

So cold, I feel life slipping

Draining from my very soul

And although I had gone in willing

This death begins to take its toll.

The darkness takes away my eyes

As death begins to fill my veins

A terrible death it is to die

And lose it all til naught remains