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My husband is upset with me because I lied about smoking a cigarette today and in the past about little things like that, he says he cannot trust me. He's ignoring me. I've got no friends in this city. I feel so worthless. I don't know what to do. I've started to harm myself. I have said to him I'm really sorry and I truly am. He says I'm ****** up. I feel perhaps I deserve how he's treating me. I want to live but I feel so bad, that I'm a bad person, that I don't deserve love. I really love him but I don't know what to do. He says I'm ruining the present. I feel so lonely. I don't know how to make things better and he won't give me a chance. I feel perhaps I don't deserve to be here. I have a good nature and want to make things good but I don't know what to do. Please help me.

The stye appeared on the top eyelid of my right eye. Was gone fairly quick, in about a week, but the bump remains. Dr said it'd be gone by itself in two months but not only it hasn't, it's even more noticeable. No stye anymore, just the bump.

Any solutions to get rid of it? Help much appreciated.